Recalling exactly why I got rid of most of these in the first place.
Out with the negative.

managing to hear every word from people is great, however its the odd sounds of the world that are disturbing. The background noise of the world is almost unbearable... I cant concentrate as I used to ... the hum of power supplies, the motor on the copiers, the clacking of numbering machines and the really shitty tin sounding PC speakers of my co-worker are all driving me nutz.

I will adjust, on a gross note... my ear wax production has quadrupled. Eventualy that will go away as well. However going from 90 to 10 on my television volume is a nice touch, also I will never annoy others with subtitles.

It is always bleakest before the dawn. We are not yet even in the eleventh hour. Please let me be wrong, not my own selfish goals but what I hope will not come to pass. This is now past me. Let them fall where they may just please let me have been wrong.

In my own selfish world one trust upheld and one trust broken. I am not sadden or engaged. I am just disappointed. It was revealed by the sharp tong of another, intent on cutting a wound no matter how small or insignificant. It is my own fault for being petty on trust, you can never trust another completely and without thought. The larger issue of trust was upheld... close to being cut off but when it comes down to it, perhaps we are mightier then our urges.

my silence and isolation beckon. Perhaps it is time to stop venturing out and loosing more of myself.

Strict deadline.
Will make the deadline.
My problem is I need the structure of a deadline, have it set. Most defiantly time sensitive.
may just have to lock myself in tonight and all of tomorrow.

I know that in the end it was for the best to not do things. However oh im sure it would have been grand, yet complications would be unbearable. Not to mention what would have been lost would have far far outweigh what would have been gained. Flesh is weak, the heart is weaker. Must reinforce the resolve. Not gonna fuck it up.